Busy and Unfulfilled



 “But the Lord said to her, “My dear Martha, you are worried and upset over all these details!” Luke 10:41

It is extremely difficult to stay motivated when my focus is on the tons of unfinished “to-do” items on my list. As usual, I must challenge those counter-productive thinking patterns within myself with the word of God. When I search the scriptures, I am overcome with gladness as I come to know and understand the character of God. Our Lord is so marvelous that He will leave an “i” undotted or a “t” uncrossed for our growth and maturation. Ideally, we want closure in every situation, we want all things in order but that is not the definition of peace.  In fact, peace is manifested in storms, light shines brighter in darkness, and pleasure is more enjoyable because of suffering. Focusing on how things are is a great way to escape into what will never be, lamenting over what was; get up and do what you can with what you have. Never mind those things that are beyond your reach. God is not asking us to dot an “i” that He did not provide the means or resources for us to execute. Sometimes we feel unfulfilled because we hold ourselves to impossible standards. Let me personalize that. Sometimes I feel unfulfilled because I become fixated on the finished product, disregarding the progression made during the process. Peace belongs to me because I do not have to be anything other than what I was made to be. I can keep going.  Realistically, I can do better than just keep going like an automated machine, I can stretch my faith to believe God for anything. There is nothing too hard for God.

“”I am the LORD, the God of all mankind. Is anything too hard for me?” Jeremiah 32:27

With that being said, I have been struggling with procrastination in the area of Self-Care. Spiritually, and mentally, I am caring for myself; however, I am having a tough time pursuing my physical goals. Well, let me fix that statement. Every physical goal that I have set for myself has not been met or attempted, namely the gym. I have the membership, the attire, yet lack the motivation to get in the door. I must give myself some credit. On the 1st of May, I committed to eating healthier and I have been doing great with that. I am not on any kind of diet or fast, but I am cognitively focused on eating to live rather than eating as if death were my goal. The thing is, I have a hard time being okay with progress without being sorrowful over the unfulfillment of the other “to do” items. Some may feel that there are not any biblical ways to view my inconsistencies within me. I beg to differ. There is a principal in the bible that either directly or indirectly covers everything we experience in life and afterlife for that matter. I am to count it all joy that I struggle in various areas. Why would anyone count difficulty as joy? I’m glad you asked.


“Count it all joy, my brothers, when you meet trials of various kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance.
” James 1:2-3

The fact that I struggle is evidence that I am striving and persevering. It is also indicative of the fact that I am such a threat to the enemy that he uses any and every device imaginable to try to stop, stall, or sink me. Nevertheless, I rely on the power of God to get back up and try again. When I come to recognize and appreciate the progress that I have made in Christ I can count it all joy and push toward my other goals. I am not ashamed to admit that I have struggled with my weight all my life, I once ate to cope with uncomfortable emotions, and would even eat myself to sleep. Statistics depict that I am not alone. Additionally, I know that embarrassment is another trick the enemy uses to keep us as believers from sharing our testimonies with one another as encouragement. Today, I glorify God with what I eat. Soon I will be able to exercise, better caring for God’s temple. It took maturity for me to get to this point as I would testify about God’s goodness in the areas in which I felt that I had conquered but I secretly harbored shame towards sharing in the areas of my struggle. No more! Today, I boast in my weakness. His strength is made perfect in my weakness. I do not intend to stay weak in these areas; neither will I beat up myself for needing to improve.


“Each time he said, “My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness.” So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ can work through me.” 2 Corinthians 12:9

There is a thin line between getting too comfortable with unfinished business which is synonymous with procrastination and not feeling accomplished unless everything is complete which resembles perfectionism. Honestly, I’ve fallen under either extreme. I trust that God does not want us bothered trying to be perfect or unbothered with failure. We should have healthy drives to push forward in Christ, yet be satisfied with the progress made as we grow up in the Lord.

God, please extinguish the unquenchable spirit of complacency and ignite a fire for Your work that will never die down. May we find joy in the process of growth and maturation, as You test our endurance rather than seeking perfect performance. Please keep us from sitting still when we are to work and help us to rest when it is time. In Jesus name, Amen.

“So let it grow, for when your endurance is fully developed, you will be perfect and complete, needing nothing.” James 1:4

“I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith.” 2 Timothy 4:7

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-Lady Jay

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