Unfulfilled Promises of God

God will get all the glory. That’s why your hands are tied. Roads blocked. And needs so great. This is the climate for the miraculous.

Who Does She Think She Is?

Just five minutes. For just five minutes I will share something that I’ve been avoiding for much of my life as a triple minority. I’m an African American, woman, with Bipolar disorder who loves Jesus. I wouldn’t feel so much secret shame if that was the end of my story, but God had the audacity…

Absenteeism

I used to ask where were you, but I knew that already Absent, not present, the heartbeat of neglect is steady With each pulse, I’m reminded that I never had a father figure So, with each pulse, I strived to make men gawk at my figure Substituting sex with a stranger to compensate for an…

The Day I Stopped Trying

This year I resolve to stop trying to do better. I resolve to stop relying on my human effort as if I can somehow master things that for the better parts of my existence have mastered me. Am I giving up? Well, I wouldn’t say I’m giving up; I’m giving God______. I am surrendering all…

Why God?

A friend and I were discussing trusting the Lord when you don’t know why. In fact, she stated that I shouldn’t try to understand why but rather continue to believe if not increase in believing. Some situations in life provoke a knee-jerk reaction of “why God?” Why this divorce, why this trauma, why this financial…

Just Die Already

What do you do when you’ve suffered long? Your faith has taken major blows because it knew how to withstand the storm but not a deluge lasting for an indefinite period. You’ve been suffering so long that it has become your baseline. Discomfort is your status quo. You’ve become accustomed to pain and disappointment. Could…

A Command to Rest

Sometimes caregivers get into the habit of feeling that they always have to be “on”. They may be riddled with feeling that if they take a break for one quick moment trouble will ensue. I am one of those kinds of caregivers. We are usually burned out, a tad resentful to be honest, and most…