Absenteeism

I used to ask where were you, but I knew that already Absent, not present, the heartbeat of neglect is steady With each pulse, I’m reminded that I never had a father figure So, with each pulse, I strived to make men gawk at my figure Substituting sex with a stranger to compensate for an…

On The Fence

  I’m at the point in my life where I desire to build lasting relationships with worthy people. Yet, I am on the fence that was made by my shame. I’ve been rejected so many times that the fence is not only cemented in the ground of my heart, it also has barbed wire. Escaping…

The Day I Stopped Trying

This year I resolve to stop trying to do better. I resolve to stop relying on my human effort as if I can somehow master things that for the better parts of my existence have mastered me. Am I giving up? Well, I wouldn’t say I’m giving up; I’m giving God______. I am surrendering all…

Why God?

A friend and I were discussing trusting the Lord when you don’t know why. In fact, she stated that I shouldn’t try to understand why but rather continue to believe if not increase in believing. Some situations in life provoke a knee-jerk reaction of “why God?” Why this divorce, why this trauma, why this financial…

A Command to Rest

Sometimes caregivers get into the habit of feeling that they always have to be “on”. They may be riddled with feeling that if they take a break for one quick moment trouble will ensue. I am one of those kinds of caregivers. We are usually burned out, a tad resentful to be honest, and most…

A Caregivers Confession- Create The Door LLC

The Lord has been dealing with me about creating an organization to support people who are struggling like me. I’m not sure if you know it but my son is severely Autistic. When I was in ministerial training, I had to choose between ministry, employment, and my son. His behavior and symptoms are so extreme…