Absenteeism

I used to ask where were you, but I knew that already Absent, not present, the heartbeat of neglect is steady With each pulse, I’m reminded that I never had a father figure So, with each pulse, I strived to make men gawk at my figure Substituting sex with a stranger to compensate for an…

The Day I Stopped Trying

This year I resolve to stop trying to do better. I resolve to stop relying on my human effort as if I can somehow master things that for the better parts of my existence have mastered me. Am I giving up? Well, I wouldn’t say I’m giving up; I’m giving God______. I am surrendering all…

Why God?

A friend and I were discussing trusting the Lord when you don’t know why. In fact, she stated that I shouldn’t try to understand why but rather continue to believe if not increase in believing. Some situations in life provoke a knee-jerk reaction of “why God?” Why this divorce, why this trauma, why this financial…

Cinderella’s Shame

That twelve-year-old dined in the latrine. They bullied her out of the cafeteria, past the principal’s office, all the way to the grimy lavatory. How could a pudgy, intellect overcome such torment? What made her so unworthy? This wasn’t David against Goliath, this was David against Goliath and his three brothers who were just as…

Shifted

Down, low My head would hang So far beneath Christ’s intent Even lower I’d clang Wondering where all my time was spent Bottled in confusion Nestled in care It was all an allusion How I despised the despair But now I’m aware That even when I was down and low There was no place where…

The Other Side Praise

“Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.” Psalms 23:4 Imagine on your spiritual journey approaching a tunnel that appears to be the most dreadful experience known to man. What’s the first thing…

Get Comfortable

Insatiable hunger Seeking spiritual food What I found was clichés Traditions and rituals But I sat still, hastened to pray Found that I was looking for flaws Negativity seeped into my quest The issue wasn’t the church It was my brokenness I’d put on these glasses Viewing the Body through my pain My heart lies…

Established Footprints

“For if you carefully keep all these commandments which I command you to do- to love the Lord your God, to walk in all His ways, and to hold fast to Him- then the Lord will drive out all these nations from before you and you will dispossess greater and mightier nations than yourselves.” Deuteronomy…

Loved On Purpose

I’m always confident until I blow it As if grace is only for the put together My mistakes pale in comparison to the blood I’m a mess at the well and He comes and sits As if mercy is only for those who do better My failings become beautiful testimonies by the blood It’s okay,…